me & mediumship

My mediumistic sense

I have been mediumistically open since I was a child, and my mediumistic sense has stayed open into my adulthood, in part because of the way my mum raised me- with heartfelt knowledge of and consistent referral to the angels that are around us, and an understanding that the paranormal exists side by side our every day life. Though I’ve always had a strong mediumistic sense, it wasn’t until I found Divine Truth that I started learning about mediumship (and other truths) and making sense of the ability. Since discovering Divine Truth teachings, I have been able to understand and develop my mediumistic tendencies, and in learning about them and how they work I have come to grow a love and passion for the ability.

My childhood

Before I learned about Divine Truth, there were times in my life when spirits were adversely affecting me but I didn’t have any understanding of what was happening or how to deal with it. In my childhood I was often exposed to dangerous people who were inebriated, medicated and/or overcloaked by dark spirits (this is when a spirit is essentially possessing a person and acting through them) and in some cases the situations were life threatening and violent. During these times my guardian (everyone on earth has a guardian spirit who is with them trying to protect them and prolong their earth life by keeping them out of danger) would often warn me ahead of time in an attempt to protect me and my family members, but they often did not heed the warnings when I voiced them, to our detriment.

I feel I owe my life to guarding spirits, who have warned, advised and protected me during times of danger, many times in ways that I don’t understand. I don’t always understand how the spirits do their work, I just know from experience that they do.

When I was younger I was very aware of spirits. I would see them clear as day or feel their presence and what type of feelings they had e.g. dark and scary or bright and friendly. Once I called out to my mum during the night because there was a “man in my room.” My mum knew it wasn’t possible that there had been an actual living man in my room and she ascertained that I was talking about a spirit. Similarly, once when I was a toddler she asked me who I was talking to and looking at (because I was interacting with something over her shoulder as she held me), I responded “mum’s friend.” She knew I was speaking with and seeing spirits and didn’t ever tell me I was imagining it or that I was wrong. These sorts of responses from a parent help keep a child’s mediumistic ability open and working.

My adolescence

As I moved towards adolescence I shut down my mediumship more, probably due to being overwhelmed by my constant exposure to dark spirits and spirit influenced people in my home life. However an interest and belief in God, Jesus, and general spirituality continued, and I dabbled in church and reading the bible, finding the concept of something holy and greater than us very appealing. I had an experience with God in church when I was 15 years old that opened me up to questioning the creation of earth, and inspired a gravitation towards Jesus.

When I was 17 I experienced the death of a friend, and continued to communicate with him after he passed away, mostly because I felt guilty for being unkind the last time I had spoken to him. He still visits and we still talk now and then. Funnily enough, when I was younger I didn’t really consider myself a medium, even though I was often conscious of spirits being present, and was directly communicating with them. I generally shut it out because I didn’t understand it, but was still very intrigued by mediums and the super natural.

Impact of drugs & alcohol

When I was 19 I experimented with marijuana for several months. At first it felt fun, silly, relaxing, and it alleviated my physical pain (which was my initial motive for trying it). After a while though, I started feeling afraid when I was high, and became aware that it was making me open to the spirit world in a way that felt uncomfortable, dark and dangerous. It freaked me out! So I decided never to do it again. Though I had been regularly drinking alcohol since I was 14 years old, I also started to get the same uncomfortable and ominous feeling when I drank alcohol so by the time I was 23 I had completely stopped drinking alcohol.

Once I found Divine Truth and learned how drugs and alcohol open you up to being overcloaked and heavily influenced by negative spirits, my own experiences made a lot more sense, and I was glad I had given up taking recreational drugs and alcohol when I did.

A lot of the decisions I made while I was under the influence of alcohol (and spirits, pun intended) were unhealthy and unsafe, as you are open to being used as an avatar for spirits to act through when you are under the influence.

I don’t drink coffee (still enjoy a decaf though) and I generally avoid pain medication - especially opiates - because I hate the feeling of being physiologically altered, and the way it opens me up to the spirit world in a way that feels very different to when I’m just doing regular mediumship. I would describe it as though a natural barrier that exists between myself and the spirits when I’m in my normal state disappears, and there is no boundary between myself and them, which is overwhelming and oppressive. It’s also helpful to have a clean and clear physical body when you are doing mediumship - the substances, drinks and food you take in your physical body effect your spirit body too, and your connection to the spirit world.

I have also seen first hand, in my work with homeless teenagers, the extremely dark route substance abuse can take when a person takes drugs and alcohol and becomes overcloaked by spirits, spiralling into what medical professionals call “drug induced psychosis.” From that point the person is often taken to a mental health institution and further medicated which can cause irreversible damage and solidify an overcloaking so that it becomes permanent, unless the person gets some help to detach the spirit. Different substances have different effects, but I find nowadays that I can’t even take more than two paracetemol tablets without being opened up to the spirit world in a way that feels disconcerting.

My Adulthood

When I was 20 I began to feel “haunted” by spirits in my room at night, something I hadn’t felt since I was younger. This was around the time of me experimenting with marijuana. I was aware that the spirit was there, and because of my lack of education I was deeply afraid of what it meant or what they might do to me. I would be paralyzed with fear under the bed covers, like I was when I was child. I remember telling my girlfriends that there was a ghost living in my wardrobe, it was really stressing me out! I began to feel increasingly bothered by the spirits, not just at night anymore but during the day as well. I was feeling badgered and I worried that I was going to end up like Emily from The Exorcism of Emily Rose!

One night, while I was at the movie theatre with my best friend watching Carrie, I excused myself to go to the bathroom because I felt like I needed to vomit. I was freaking out because I was afraid of the spirits around me, everything felt dark, I was beside myself, I felt like they were encroaching more and more on me and I didn’t realise I had any power to stop them. This is incredibly unnerving when you don’t understand mediumship or the spirit world, yet you feel aware on some level that what’s happening is of a spiritual nature. It feels out of control and very very isolating. I remember standing in the mall outside the cinema not knowing what to do, crying, telling the spirit standing next to me to leave me alone, over and over. My friend must have been confused and concerned. I felt like I needed professional help. I called another someone I knew who was aware of spirits, and asked him to take me to a hospital. I have always found the concept of mental institutions frightening, and yet I was so much more frightened of what was happening to me that all I wanted was professional help, even if it meant medication, observation, institutionalisation.

Fortunately the two people I was with decided not to take me to a hospital, out of insight that this was a spirit related problem, not a mental health problem, and that if I told medical staff what I was telling my friends, I’d likely be institutionalised.

The next day I went to see a medium, in search of education and help of a spiritual nature, as it was undeniable to me now that this was a spirit problem, not an internal mental problem. I can’t remember what she said but it was helpful enough to give me the sense that I wasn’t powerless to the situation and it wasn’t destined to get worse. She wasn’t panicked, which helped. In hindsight she was a good evidentiary medium (getting accurate information about people who had passed), but she didn’t have much of a clue about how the spirit world works, or even what spirits were with her “guiding” her, though she thought she did.

At the time I saw her as a spiritual authority because I had experienced her evidential mediumship once before and it had rung true (she picked up on my friend who had died when I was a teenager and got his information stunningly correct). Though she wasn’t completely clear about what was happening to me, or how spirit attachment works, she validated the experience I was having. She could feel that a spirit/s was bothering me and she told me I had more power over the situation than I thought and that the spirit could only take as much power as I gave it. Game changer. While this didn’t help me understand much about the entire situation or how to fix it, there was truth enough in it to alleviate my fear, because I learned that it wasn’t true that I had no control and I wasn’t destined to end up like Emily Rose!

This is an important lesson for anyone dealing with spirit influence, attack or attachment - you have power in the situation. I recommend reading the Padgett Message written on December 4th 1917 by Helen Padgett on this topic.

After finding Divine Truth and moving to SE Qld, I was fortunate to join a small mediumship group which ended up being lead by Mary. She mentored us regularly (once a month for over a year) on the loving use of mediumship, how mediumship works, how to improve our mediumship and connection with our guides and we had a lot of practice channelling spirits and doing practical exercises with other people in the group.

I feel passionate about sharing what I’ve learned and my abilities as a medium, because while there are some strong evidentiary mediums around, there are very few who have a sound education about the spirit world and who can effectively help others, including the spirits themselves. There are a lot of misconceptions about the spirit world and a lot of mediumship causes more harm than good because of the lack of truth, and the lack of ethical and moral principles in the medium’s dynamics with the clients and the spirits.

My Passion for Mediumship

I feel passionate about talking to as many people as I can who are experiencing “mental health” crises, because I understand how often spirits are involved with people in these situations and how overpowering spirits can be. I understand what it feels like to be isolated, undermined and to not understand or feel like you have any control over what’s happening to you.

Many people are experiencing this, whether they understand that the issue is spirit related like I did, or not. Many people simply believe they are mentally unwell or that there is something wrong with them that cannot be helped. I have so much compassion for people who are in this situation because I know what it feels like. Or they may be aware that there are spirits around them (I have met people in my daily life who describe having spirits “stuck” to them), but they don’t know why or what to do about it - and they even tend to think this is a fact of life and don’t have any desire to do anything about it. But I believe if they were educated about it they would want to do something about it. Spirit influence is effecting everybody on Earth in some way or another, so it makes sense that we should understand what is happening. I still have a long way to go with breaking my codependence and with spirits that have been with me since my childhood, and how easily I allow myself to be influenced by them still. I am still afraid of dark spirits, but not in the same way I was before I learned Divine Truth. Now that I have the benefit of learning God’s Truth about spirits and the spirit world, I have the tools to deal with spiritual matters (if I engage my will to do so), which is a gift that so many people don’t get in their earth lives - this is why I want to share about it. Truth is so powerful in alleviating fear and misconceptions, and empowering you to take control of your situation by understanding it! Now, instead of being completely in the dark and generally afraid/bewildered by anything to do with spirits, mediumship brings me a lot of joy!

Why I detuned from Mediumship

For a long time I did not understand mediumship properly, and I was detuning from my mediumistic sense for a number of reasons. One being that I have wanted to be seen as normal and not weird- I am having to give this up, as it’s just not possible! But detuning from my mediumship has made me feel disconnected from myself and I have a sense of loss of self from disconnecting from this part of me. Another reason I have detuned from my mediumship is because I’ve been quite afraid of seeing/feeling the darker spirits that are around, and also I have shut out the love from the brighter spirits who are around – either way, it all comes down to not wanting to experience and go through my emotions of fear, grief, anger etc about all of the above - and more. I have found that emotional openness goes hand in hand with better mediumship, and it is something I endeavour to improve on.

Mediumship as an adventure

Mediumship is like an adventure. It feels like discovering new things and new ways of being given information all the time. When I speak to or channel a spirit, I’m given glimpses into the spirit world and am always experiencing new things. Seeing new places, experiencing how loving spirits always come to help when asked, and what their love for the other spirits and myself feels like. I see how the results of a persons earth life come to the forefront when they enter their spirit life, reflected in the location they live in and what condition their spirit body is in.

Sometimes I see physical wounds on the area of a spirit’s body where they hold trauma or were ill or harmed in their earth life. (Sometimes I see this on living people too or am forewarned by our guides where a physical problem is occurring, e.g. gall bladder.) For some spirits they have huge open wounds and their organs are hanging out. For some, they present to me looking how they did when they passed – especially murder victims. I’m not 100% sure why this is. I feel it’s because they are still “stuck” on the event and haven’t moved on from it emotionally, therefore they still appear physically affected from it. Perhaps it is also so that I can easily see and describe how they passed, for example if they have been beaten they appear bruised, bloody, swollen etc, so it’s easy for me to identify what happened to them. There are so many benefits to mediumship and it feels like flinging open the doors to the universe and experiencing all the wonders of the spirit world.

Benefits of mediumship for people

I believe that loving use of mediumship can benefit everyone. Not only is it my passion but I’ve seen it bring help to people on earth and in the spirit world in so many ways, just as I have been helped by it myself. I have spoken to and channelled many types of spirits - the spirit world is so full of variety! It is truly such a gift and I look forward to continuing to share it with others.